I thought I wasn't ready. Musings of a Teacher Trainee by Rebecca Lange
"Emotion is your mind working out the difference between what you expected and what you're experiencing."
I can't think of another set of 16 words that resonates with me more regarding my experience as a yoga teacher trainee and along the path I've taken to get here. Fear, joy, disappointment, elation, confidence, insecurity, struggle, and flow - I've felt it all while on my mat and not to mention while upside down, balancing on one arm, and bending my body along planes I didn't even know existed.
And I wouldn't change a thing. Yoga Deza entered my life five plus years into my yoga journey, but as the name suggests, it found me in the right place at the right time. Although my ego would like to claim credit for having this whole thing planned out, I'm learning that there's so much more at play than that. I thought I wasn't ready for teacher training because I hadn't yet measured up to the physical standard and the image of who I was supposed to be in my mind. I needed the right community and, honestly, the right context in my personal life to realize that I was ready. And I was ready not because of physical ability level, but because that's all I was thinking about. I realize now that yoga is so much more than the physical asanas (though I AM stronger and have found my spine!). I have found the ability to meet myself where I'm at, be so grateful it's at Yoga Deza, and I am ready to free myself from the expectation of what comes next. Whatever it is, I'm grateful. Thank you, Deza Family.
Rebecca's words are some we hear so often. Reconciling the differences between what you are expecting of yourself and what is available to you, right now in this moment -- that is Yoga. You will never be more ready than you are today. If you wait until "next year" when you have more strength, more money, more time, or whatever else your mind tells you you need, you'll be missing the point of life. To be fully in the flow of life, to create what you're looking for, that is what is here and real now. What makes the best teacher trainee is the ability to learn! Do you want to know more? Do you love what your practice offers you? Are you willing to be teachable? If you answered yes to those three questions, you are absolutely ready.
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